A Job, a Birthday and a Bowl of Cherries

Summer Cherries. My favorite!
“Life, a good life, a great life is about "Why not?" May we never forget it.”
Danielle Steel, Happy Birthday 

Wow. It's Friday at 5:00pm and we have not spoken all week. I miss you!

No recipe this week as I've been doing a lot of prepping and interviewing for Marketing Director positions. Cross your fingers for me! Next week, though, we'll have all kinds of treats so stay tuned.

In other news, I will turn forty four this weekend. Yes, I did just spell that out because, HOLY MOLY! I'm FORTY FOUR. Yowza. Let's see, where did I think I'd be at 44? When I was a teenager, I thought I'd be running a film studio a la Sherry Lansing. In my twenties, I thought I'd be a rockstar yogini like Seane Corn. In my 30s, all I wanted was to become a mother, which, thank you God, I did.

Now that I'm almost halfway through my 40s, naturally and perhaps predictably, all I want to be is ME. Plain old, sugar-loving, Type A, party-throwing, big sister, wife, mommy, daughter, ME. I want to be true to myself. To be vulnerable enough to tell someone when they've hurt me (you know, if I know them). To be strong enough to say no when the request really is too much to take on. To be kind enough to forgive those who trespass against me, especially myself. I want to be a stellar wife to Jeremy and to stay grateful that I get to be Lulu's mom. I want to mend fences and build new ones. But, mostly, I just want to be solid enough in who I am that rather than worry about saying the right thing or doing the right thing become able to say and do something.

My friends reading this will giggle because so much of my life I've seemed confident, even boisterous, but those few of you know that deep beneath that good posture is a little girl who's not so sure of herself. This year, I want to let myself be.

That's all for this week. Please feel free to blame my birthday for any overdoing it this weekend. Enjoy. It's summer! And my 44th birthday (faint).

Much love and many thanks for being on this journey with me.

xox,

A.

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  1. Allison, I admire your strength and wisdom. Happy Birthday! xo

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    1. Thank you! I'm certainly doing my best. xoxoxoxox

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  2. I cannot believe that you will be 44. Teri turned 44 on July 9th. It seems like just yesterday your mom and I had bumped bellies, hugging each other in June of 1970 at a "Doors" concert when they came up to Seattle where I lived! Yet, somehow, it seems like a lifetime ago..... Happy Birthday! Have a wonderful day dear niece! See you in October! oxox

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    1. Aunt Peggy,
      It's so crazy how time passes. And I'm so grateful to have my mom and my aunties to walk the parenting path before me. Because now I know how much it will freak me out when Lulu turns 44!
      Much love and can't wait to hug you in October,
      A.

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